Back again after yet another lengthy hiatus and some interesting travels…
Been thinking, (on this dastardly cold laundry day) about showing up for yourself. Putting your best foot forward when the cameras are off, when you have no one to ‘put on’ for.
Been on my mind since I had a conversation in which my counterpart asked why I would ‘waste makeup by putting it on at home?’ The question confused me a little so I responded with ‘Who did you think I was putting it on for in the first place’? Don’t know why its such an odd concept. The idea of getting dressed because you want to, not because its mandatory? Sometimes when I’m at home and have hit a road block creatively or otherwise, ill go into my closet and put on a pair of heels. Similarily
if when I feel negative energy creeping up, I’ll look down and be like ‘what… the fuck… am I wearing...?’ I’ll change, put on something I feel good in, maybe a little lipstick if the mood strikes.
I’m not saying that you should go home and paint your face, but what I am saying is take care of yourself whatever that looks like to you.
Especially when no one else is watching.
For me its much harder to manage myself when people are watching. I immediately clam up and become unsure of what to do with myself. I’m particular my hands. Suddenly I’m over thinking and questioning normal actions. Like where…do I put my hands? Do I cross them? Put them in my pockets….? FML…
I wish it was more socially acceptable to sit in silence together than to make forced awkward small talk about shit nobody really cares about. Why do humans feel the need to fill social moments with chatter…? Perhaps I’m alone on this one…. ok sorry, lol, *ahem*…back to the Facetime…
As much as I wish I could, I can’t take credit for this fab effing application. I legit jacked the exact look from makeup extraordinaire Kim Weber from an image I found on tumblr. Usually i’d add my own lil personal touch, but this one was perfect as is….why re-invent the wheel? Don’t you agree?
What keeps you sane as we painstakingly transition from one Season to another? Any tips you can share to help us get through this Sprinter Season?
love, as always,